Saturday Night's Alright for...This.

[velouria]

Saturday. Not sure why I was looking forward to it. The Boyfriend is fucking around on his computer/the only TV in the house for hours on end. Plus I just learned he follows Amanda slutball Bynes on Twitter. I mean so do I, but it's to see half-naked pictures of her. I guess I'm being hypocritical, but I'm pissed off.

Maybe I'm just being a hippo. My psychiatrist put me on some sort of diabetic medicine to offset the ravenous hunger caused by the antidepressants, but I think it's just making me sick. Maybe that's the point. The description literally says to prevent limbs from falling off. I don't think I'm at that point in time yet, but I will be if I keep stuffing whole pints of Ben and Jerry's in my face.

I hate being a fatass. I just hate it. Nothing fits me. Nothing looks good on me. My face looks bizarre and distorted in photos. I looked like a dumpy piece of shit in all my Hawaiian photos, and that was months ago. I can't say I was any happier when I was thinner, but it's true that you don't know what you got til it's gone. I suppose I'll be thinking that when my arm falls off. I hope it's the left one at least.

Comments

[hysan.livejournal.com]

At first, I was all like "half-naked Amanda Bynes? Cool!" Then I remembered how she's mentally ill, then I found out she's gotten breast implants.

I really wish I hadn't googled her. You really don't need to follow her on Twitter for that.

Also....if you weren't happier when you were thinner, maybe that's not the source of your sadness? I say this as a long time fatass who was once about 150lbs on a good day.

But anyway, Amanda Bynes.....gross.

[ba-doinger.livejournal.com]

Antidepressants make people gain weight? I looked up the side effects and only remember freaking out when I read they may give you limp penis and increased thoughts of suicide.

[velouria.livejournal.com]

Yes.They also do the latter.

[(Anonymous)]

Was only following her because you were. Then she was super crazy, so I stopped.