Credit in the Straight World.

9 months sobersaurus this week. I need to reevaluate the reasons I ever drank to begin with, because I find myself wanting to:

- Social discomfort
- My anxiety
- My worrying
- My neurosis
- My dreadful job
- My lack of money (these two are related)

And the reasons not to:

- It solves none of this
- It makes it worse
- I'll puke on my bed
- I just bought new sheets
- I'll be violently hungover
- My liver
- My other organs
- My poor brain
- Etc.

Wanting to be shit-faced is just a feeling I have. It's a feeling like all the other ones I'm trying to deal with.